After a crazy week full of 10-17 hour days, 13.5 came and went. The Open is done. I repeated 13.5 Saturday morning in an attempt to get more than the 61 reps I managed to eek out on Thursday. I felt like if I could move through the second set of pull-ups faster, I should be able to manage more reps. But, even though I moved faster, I just couldn't do it. I couldn't get the big improvement I was hoping for. I eeked out +1 more rep and wound up with 62. And it ended. Just like that. With one final collapse on the floor, I finished the 2013 Open. There were no streamers, no banners, no balloons falling from the sky.... In the blink of an eye, it was over. I took a shower, I changed my clothes, and then I went to work a double. It was completely and totally..... anticlimatic....
I can't say I'm pleased with the Open. I never am. I don't do well over a long period of time like this. For someone like me who routinely works long days, trying to stay up and competitive over a period of five weeks is hard. I don't want to make excuses, but it is. I am someone who is convinced that I CAN do it all. I can teach, serve, compete at CrossFit, volunteer with my group, and sing in my choir. I'm hard. I'm not easy. I'm complex and complicated but I still want to be able to do everything at 100%. Is that feasible? Some would say no. I say yes. But it makes me a challenging athlete to coach. It makes it hard to help me help myself. But regardless of my circumstances over the past several months leading up to the Open, it is what it is and the scores are final. A final look at the standings shows that out of 2365 women who completed all of the wods, I am 479. Last year there were only 1300 women who competed in the Mid Atlantic region. This year, that number nearly doubled, and I'm still well within the top half of that number. I guess I should be happy with that.... but a perfectionist like me is not ever satisfied..... Now it's on to the next one.... we'll see what that will be.
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