Over the course of my years at CrossFit, I've always done things my own way. I never jumped on the bandwagons of things right away, and I've always sort of marched to my own beat. I didn't compete right away.... I held on to my sparkly chucks for a long time.... held out on Lulu.... and I resisted going Paleo when everyone swore it was the rage. But as with most things in life, there comes a time. A time when you sit and evaluate, then reevaluate how you feel, what you want, and what it's going to take to get there. As a result, I have come to the conclusion that it's time. It's time to start receiving some of the information that has been in my face for a very long time.
For a very long time, the science and the success stories of being Paleo have been in front of me. Time after time, people shared how much better they felt. They shared recipes, they shared before and after pictures, and they urged me to come on board. But if there is one thing that I have learned about myself through CrossFit, it's that I'll get there when I get there, and if I'm not ready to receive you or the information you have, it's never going to sink in. I'm an analogy girl, so I'll put it like this. We've all, at some point, probably dated someone who was not right for us. And no matter how many times people sat you down to have "The Talk" where they tell you that he/she is "just so not right for you", you never listened. Why? Because you weren't ready to. You weren't ready to let go yet. You were not ready to open yourself up to the information. In your mind, he/she made you happy. Yeah, they had their faults, but there was so much good about them, and yeah he/she cheated on you, but it was just that one time and they've really changed..... bullshit. We've all been there. We were living in a fantasy world where everything was roses, and we weren't ready to let go. Letting go meant change, and let's face it, for a lot of us, CHANGE IS SCARY. We weren't ready to receive the information.
After many years of living in this really awful and horrible relationship, I'm finally ready to receive the information. I'm letting go of a very bad boyfriend that I've held on to for far too long.
Diet I'm sorry. It's not me, it really is you.
I have felt lethargic and sick and been just a few pounds overweight for far too long. It is high time I did something to improve how I look and feel about myself. It is high time that I stop hurting myself with copious amounts of sugar, and stop dealing with my issues through indulging in food. Cortisol and sugar do not mix. It is high time that I stop being a slave to either of them.
Diet, it's OVER.
I have a nutritionist, who I respect highly. While sometimes I want to hit her for the things she tells me I need to do, I understand that she has my best interests and health at heart. And believe me when I tell you, that for me, having someone that I have to be accountable to during these early stages is key. I know that eventually I will move into that maintenance stage where it is up to me to maintain my healthy choices, but for now, knowing that I have to admit to her every gram of sugar or gluten or alcohol that I eat, helps me to make better choices. I'm not 100% Paleo right now. I'm trying, but I know there are still habits to break, and let's face it. I'm human. I forgot to say no cheese on the omelette the other day, I ate half a piece of toast. But slowly, and surely, I'm working on eliminating these things from my diet.
My point in writing this whole piece though, is to hopefully encourage other people who may be like me. Do things in your own time. Be ready to receive the information. Don't feel like you have to do things because people tell you to. Do them for the RIGHT reasons. But when you're ready, be prepared. It's hard work, but guess what? You're a CrossFitter. Do work, son.