Ah... Monday morning after a long night at work, there's nothing better than rolling out of bed at 4:30 and rolling into CFOT and looking to the white board and seeing... FRAN!?!? Ah, *****&&&&%$#@@!!@#$$%%^&&**&^$#@@@#$%^&& That was more or less my reaction this morning when I read the white board.
Last night was another butt kicker at work. We had an early hit, and then once it was down to just me (since I was closing) about 7 tables came in. I wasn't slammed or running my butt off, but it meant that I didn't get out of there until after 11:30 and by the time I stopped at the bank and then got home, it was close to midnight.
I've gotten so sick and tired of myself eating like crap and working out like crap that I was hell bent and determined to get into CFOT today. But of course, getting up at 0430 after getting home at midnight..... yeah, I am not so much a fan on Facebook. Anyhoo, I did it, and when I got there, boy was I in for a rude awakening. Shit. Really? Fran? C'mon... on a Monday? Oh burn...
But, I sucked it up like a good lemming is supposed to, and you know what? I got 'er done. I haven't done Fran since September. Even though CFOT hit it a few weeks ago, I missed it. So, I was glad to get at Fran again because it's been awhile. A hot minute if you will. If you don't know what Fran looks like, or if you've blocked it from your mind, or if you just need to be induced with sedatives when you think about Fran, so you therefore try not to remember the workout... let me tell you what Fran looks like.
Rx women 65lbs
So, last time I did Fran in September, I did it with 90lbs... shut up! I'm still bitter about my poor counting! The last time I did Fran with a women's weight was August. I was hardcore zoning then, and hitting the gym pretty solidly. So needless to say, with the way things have been going here lately, I was a bit concerned about how well I'd stack up. However, I was completely blown away by what happened.
I broke six minutes. Not just by 2 seconds or what have you. I went 5:45 on the button. 5:45. That's over a minute off my last PR. Holy crizzap. I'm still not in that upper tier of women with that time, but it felt good for me, since I'm not a metcon ninja and since I've plummeted off the Zone wagon. Today is almost like rock bottom for me. That time was awesome, but I'm gaining weight and I can feel it. I really want to get back in the Zone like I was last year, but I don't know where to find that motivation again. Last year I was so heavy that I hated myself for it. I don't hate myself now, so I don't have that same motivation. I don't want to end up there again, but I'm not 100% convinced that's going to happen, so I don't have that fear either. I need something, ANYTHING, to get me to get my butt back in there. I know that once I do, I'll be ok, and I'll do it, but how do I get BACK THERE? 3 days... 3 more days to hold onto... then... peace... for at least a little while...