It seems that despite the awesome day I had the other day, I was doomed to have a sophomore slump today. Today was deadlifts. I rounded out at 195 and Jerry made me drop the weight. Jerry has NEVER told me to drop a weight. I'm a little bit meticulous when it comes to form and I try very hard to make sure that it is on point, but today, apparently it was just not to be. I hit my old PR and Jerry made me put it down.
After that, I was shot. Mentally that just f'd with me in the worst way. Jerry told me to drop to 80% and do a few reps and I couldn't. I just could not focus to save my life. I was so concerned with rounding out that I didn't want to pick up another bar. We were working on some ring dips in between sets of deadlifts, and I felt weak on those too. It just sucked. Afterwards we hit a short circuit that was a little smoker. So overall, today's fun looked like this.
50% of max X 5
60% of max X 5
80% of max X 3
Max X 1
10 rounds or 15 minutes
My time on the WOD was 12:49. It didn't feel too bad actually. The burpees, for me, were actually pretty fast. I'm not a speed demon, so the fact that I was one of the first to call time was actually a little out of the ordinary. Of course, I then got smoked by Mel, Danny, Jack, Joel, and Andrea, but eh, I got it done.
I know this is going to sound off for me, and it feels off to say, but I'm having a little trouble in the Blue Room these last few days. I don't know what it is, but I feel, out of it, sort of disconnected. I don't mean from the workouts, just from the people. I'm not sure how to describe it, but I definitely have sort of been feeling like a loner lately. I don't know why, or how to correct it, but I just feel... I don't know.... Off is the only way I can put it really. I'm having trouble finding the words for it. I don't know if it's just because I've been bouncing around between classes or if it's because I've been out of town a lot the last few weeks, but I don't like it. I just kinda feel like I have somehow missed out on a lot and I feel like I can't talk to people. I just wish I knew how to fix that feeling....
Here's to hoping tomorrow is a much better day... cause this one sucked.