It seems that despite the awesome day I had the other day, I was doomed to have a sophomore slump today. Today was deadlifts. I rounded out at 195 and Jerry made me drop the weight. Jerry has NEVER told me to drop a weight. I'm a little bit meticulous when it comes to form and I try very hard to make sure that it is on point, but today, apparently it was just not to be. I hit my old PR and Jerry made me put it down.
After that, I was shot. Mentally that just f'd with me in the worst way. Jerry told me to drop to 80% and do a few reps and I couldn't. I just could not focus to save my life. I was so concerned with rounding out that I didn't want to pick up another bar. We were working on some ring dips in between sets of deadlifts, and I felt weak on those too. It just sucked. Afterwards we hit a short circuit that was a little smoker. So overall, today's fun looked like this.
Warm-up
50% of max X 5
60% of max X 5
80% of max X 3
Max X 1
WOD
10 rounds or 15 minutes
7 Pull-ups
7 Burpees
My time on the WOD was 12:49. It didn't feel too bad actually. The burpees, for me, were actually pretty fast. I'm not a speed demon, so the fact that I was one of the first to call time was actually a little out of the ordinary. Of course, I then got smoked by Mel, Danny, Jack, Joel, and Andrea, but eh, I got it done.
I know this is going to sound off for me, and it feels off to say, but I'm having a little trouble in the Blue Room these last few days. I don't know what it is, but I feel, out of it, sort of disconnected. I don't mean from the workouts, just from the people. I'm not sure how to describe it, but I definitely have sort of been feeling like a loner lately. I don't know why, or how to correct it, but I just feel... I don't know.... Off is the only way I can put it really. I'm having trouble finding the words for it. I don't know if it's just because I've been bouncing around between classes or if it's because I've been out of town a lot the last few weeks, but I don't like it. I just kinda feel like I have somehow missed out on a lot and I feel like I can't talk to people. I just wish I knew how to fix that feeling....
Here's to hoping tomorrow is a much better day... cause this one sucked.
16 comments:
Everyone has off days, Katie. Think about what happened to you. The power of the mind is really incredible, isn't it? It can help you, or it can hinder you. It's a good thing to remember...to use your mind as a tool.
The rest of it? Can you try to hit the workout at the same time each day for a week or so? Try to set a routine if you can.
Don't fret over it all too much. We all have our moments!
I know that sometimes when things get crazy with life and I get out of my groove, I just have to take some time and be alone.
Don't worry about fixing anything. If you don't feel like being a social butterfly today, just go with it. Embrace your funk.
You can spend a lot of time and energy thinking about what you missed or what will happen down the road, but that's just a distraction from what's going on right in front of you.
"Life is simple. Everything happens for you, not to you. Everything happens at exactly the right moment, neither too soon nor too late.
You don't have to like it - it's just easier if you do."
Byron Katie
Katie-
We ALL have days like that. Both the the workout and the people. For the workout, regardless of having to put the weight down, 195# is awesome! Be proud you hit your old PR, and on a day you felt off.
Sounds like Justa has a great idea about hitting a class the same time for about a week. It's hard to bounce between classes, I've had to do it many times. There's so much to be said for the community CF builds, and you've pointed out that your affiliate is esp close. So hang in there, get some rest, and things will be back to normal before you know it :)
Kim B
Katie I was doing the Military S.O.S that I posted and like I said I was struggling through 20! consecutive pull-ups that never happens. And then when I got to the 40 it was obviously twice as hard and I had to keep reminding myself to take small breaks as I was not getting proper form and was cheating.
Live everyone else has said we all have off says where we are tired need a little rest or didn’t have enough in the tank. Just take it in stride and get ready for your next physical challenge. You still had a great workout.
Hey Katie, just some quick thoughts before I run to lunch. I feel the same way after being out for a week. I think the Challenge may have a bit to do with it too. It's a feeling like everyone is working on goals and you haven't quite gotten to work on yours. I also think the bouncing from class to class may be contributing. When I was a strict 6:45-er.. that class was my family. I could always new my progress among my classmates. Now that I'm going back and forth from 6 to 6:45.. I feel like people are progressing and I haven't been able to watch it happen.
Really, it's all mental. You're still awesome. Maybe pick a class and stick with it if you can. The other stuff just goes away. I promise!
Justa, I'm not going to lie. When Jerry told me to put the bar down, I felt like I got sucker punched. It was a bad feeling to have. I didn't like it. It really messed with my head for the rest of the morning.
As for the same workout time, the only thing that has been affecting that is work. The last couple nights I've closed I've had late tables, and when that happens, I wind up not getting home til 1130-1200 and then that's not even sleep time, so I don't usually want to get up at 5.
PT, Forts, Kim, I really appreciate your thoughts.
Adrienne, I'm glad that you understand what I'm saying because I didn't know if I was making sense, and I'm having a hard time finding a way to describe it. I feel like I am missing out on a ton... missing Fran felt like missing a family holiday. Not to mention, I felt awful that I missed out on Gar's muscle up yesterday! Gar is like the big brother I never got to have. I love working out with him. He's part of the reason I've stuck at 0600 during the summer.
I'm going to try as much as possible to stay at 0600 but work sometimes likes to be a pain in my butt. I agree about the challenge too though. My work these last few days/weeks has been pretty solid, but it's hard to feel excited about it when people are breaking challenge goals etc all around. It almost pales in comparison. Getting my first deadhangs last week, and even my first weighted ones... it was a big deal for me, but I felt like in comparison to all the challenge stuff and Fran, it wasn't really such a great accomplishment. Thank you for your suggestions and for understanding. I hope you are right that things will smooth with some time.
I'd be interested to hear your ANTS (automatic negative thoughts) when you were told to put down the bar.
Maybe you're just tired from travelling this week, and lets face it crossfit is exhausting.
Just relax a little, take some time, eat some nice fresh and healthy food and say 'hi' to folks in the blue room soon!
Steve, the stream of negative thoughts went something like this...
"But I can lift more weight!"
"My form isn't usually this off."
"God, I really want to cry."
Not exactly what you were expecting I'm sure...
Katie - I agree 100% with Adrienne. I believe you are feeling this way simply because recently you are inconsistent with your class times due to your new schedule for your “summer of fun.” In addition, there are a ton of new faces in the 0600 class and it takes some time before the same level of camaraderie is built – that said, you know it happens quick at CFOT. Don’t over think it. As your adopted ‘big brother’ I would like to meet any guy you are planning to date more than twice prior to the second date. I have “expert” level experience in vetting younger sitter’s boyfriends.
Adrienne – headlocks are worse given by sweaty people. Stick to 6.
STOP comparing your accomplishments to others. Would you ever beat yourself up because Karen or Leslie beat you in a 2 mile? Of course not. Competition is great but maybe its time to just have fun for a minute. That's what I'm really seeing come from the Challenge. Everyone has stopped competing with the person next to them and is taking a step back and cheering them on instead. The dynamic is different and perfect for summer. Don't get discouraged. Have fun instead!!!
Gar, seeing as how Jeff is already in love with me, we'll have to arrange that meeting soon. Jeff, are you reading this? Get your bus ticket... ;) Seriously though, thanks for your thoughts. Like I was trying to say, something just feels off.... but I'm glad someone understands.
Georgia, I don't mean that in a bad way, just that everyone is doing awesome in the challenge and when people are breaking their Fran goals, I feel like I should stop focusing on my one chin cause they're freakin' rockin' stuff out. McCall, you are so f'ing strong! :)
Whenever I start feeling disconnected and loner-y, I know I actually need to go be a loner and spend some time with just myself. For me its all about feeding my introversion and recovering energy. A day spent hiking in the mountains or stuck away somewhere with a book and I'm good to go again (although sometimes it takes a bit longer)
Lars, in truth, that doesn't sound like a bad idea. I've been busy lately, and I've taken time off work, but it's to go travel to see people and do things. I find myself spending much of my days just in my room sleeping cause I'm so freakin' tired. Maybe I do just need a day or two to sleep and be loner-y. It's been a hectic month since school let out!
Katie, I saw that you wrote somewhere that Jerry got the Hopper Deck. I ordered one the day they were first available, but I'm still waiting for it. Stupid borders!! Anyway, chin up and hopefully tomorrow is a better day.
Ah..but what do your automatic thoughts mean to you?
Ask yourself 'so what?' to each of your automatic thoughts, then ask 'so what does this say about me?' to the subsequent answers and you'll find the basis for your angst.
Or maybe just get some freaking sleep!!!
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